I.
With blood I found a shelter though filled with love is threatening - outside of that is all but ridicule.
There are selfless souls who may be unconditional but were never meant, though still persistent.
I became my own army for a battle I have to win - but kept wondering the purpose of existence and the reason to fight.
And there came my refuge who will always be the savior and funny how I still wander.
Then I found you who became every color I recognize but suddenly fades...
And I found them, a temporary relief that can never make up for the roles I ideally picture them.
A journey braved by hope that I will find what I'm looking for...
But until now, I never knew home...
I still never knew...
II.
For if you love, you have to accept that you don't share your life to be reciprocated.
You do it at your own will, with the risk of not being understood.
Many a times, justification of an intention so pure will never compensate destiny.
Then you get hurt by hoping there's something in return.
How ironic it may seem that you don't choose the one to love,
but you have to make a choice to let it go.
III.
I walked the first time in a cold late dawn...
Sky a mix of blue and orange where clouds appear dull and dark.
But still the night sky is apparent with the glowing stars and halfmoon.
The world so at peace and only the sound of the morning clock I rhytmically hear.
Slowly, the east sky spreads to a pale orange overthrowing the blue.
People started to jog and some ride their bicycles.
I never expected I can greet the morning smiling.
I never thought I will be looking forward to a new day.
As the world turns, I want to be here again - exactly where I was,
and celebrate life.
