Healing

My song of the moment...


Now that we have gotten through
One more fall
I can just admit I've got it all
Cause I do
Cause I've got you
We've crossed these battle lines too many times
It passes through the heart
But it never leaves a mark

Cause Your love just keeps on healing me
No matter how I bruise
If I just trust You
Your love just keeps on healing me
One more cure
One more chance that wasn't there before
In your arms
no pain can harm the way im feeling
Lord I know that Your love is healing

I've kicked around those lines in my head
But I never listened to the words that You said
See where it's lead
Well I know I have it now
Cause You showed me how
And all I had to do
Was just to keep my eyes on You

Cause Your love just keeps on healing me
No matter how I bruise
If I just trust You
Your love just keeps on healing me
One more cure
One more chance that wasnt there before
In your arms
no pain can harm the way im feeling
Lord I know that Your love is healing

(break)

Cause Your love just keeps on healing me
No matter how I bruise
If I just trust You
Your love just keeps on healing me
One more clue
One more chance that wasnt there before
In your arms
no pain can harm the way im feeling

Lord I know that Your love is healing

The Discovery

Tears were uncertain
Either to drop
Or to fight gravity.

The probable act
Speaks a magnitude
Different from what is seen.

Every release
Connotes defeat.
It succumbs to failure the least.

Holding back
Is a stressful attempt.
Nearly exploding from fear.

Uncertain...

Forceful...

On the verge of...

A make or break...

Little drops
Impossible to hold.
Sparkling with vengeance

Eyes finally closed.
Then watered the ground.
Unstoppable.

An admission though,
Weakness was empowered.
A glorious reality.

The prisoner of tradition
Unveiling a new discovery –
A melancholic festivity.

The Fight

At a crossroad,
Humanity can choose
Whatever direction
To pursue.

Turning Left
Was an action
Agreed by
Mind and body.

Resulting failure
Was a consolation
To know the right path
This time.

Everyone anticipates
It will be Right by now.
But no signal reflected,
It went down Straight.

They are free -
Results are boundless.
They can detour anytime
Make up for lost time.

When it’s my turn to cross…
Then I found.

Day and Night,
I mastered the moves.
I could’ve worked my way.
But my feet were cuffed.

I’m bound to rot,
Decay my flesh
Exorcism of some sort,
I am trapped.

Powerful mind
Unrelenting Faith
Focused thought
I can escape entrapment

Now I begin to take steps
Surprisingly boundless
I chose my path.
My imagination becomes reality.

Hope

Letters form words -
If I bother to read.
Words give meanings-
If I dare to understand.
Meanings become reality-
If I just believe.

Answers were revealed.
But what do they seem to me?

The inner self explodes.

I started to climb
But should not falter
I was handed the key
That I cannot drop.
I received the promise.
I should believe.

Faith is within me.
How long will it be?

Mind juggles and resolves.


There is only ONE hope.

Menu

Some years ago,
mom has ordered
comfort food and staples
to the waiter in red.
It was for two.

Rice - steaming hot.
Meat - well done.
Lots of vegetables - all leafy greens.
plus ice cream for pleasure.

Year after year,
she ordered the same thing.
I ate the same thing.

But soon my mind explored.
Without mom I thought:
Why not pasta over rice?
Omit others.
Then add cakes and crepes with ice cream.

Then year after year,
I ordered that same thing.
I pleasured that same thing.

Not too long,
body collapsed.
Consequences faced.
Foundations shattered.
I have to learn.

Today, I''m about to order.
What mom used to order.
Comfort food and staples
for my son.
It will be for two.

My First Haiku

The people crossing
nude in the eyes of the wise
empty beneath hats.

Immortal

Now I'll start my life without you.
But I remain strong coz I knew.
Though my eyes will set at blank corners,
what we shared will get the day through.

An empty chair will never be,
for my phone filled with your messages
makes me forget you even left.

While distant and apart,
I'll just close my eyes
and feel your gentle kiss...
then my emptiness will be gone
knowing you are also thinking of me.

Soon our worlds will be apart
and ocean might separate us.
But we have each other's heart
where our friendship will reside.

In time, we'll be together,
as if never waited.
And it will even surprise us,
why we feel like we just had yesterday.

Victory

Quest is persistent.
Opportunities are boundless;
but failure is handful,
and to end is sentenced.

'Twas a bright day ,
where hopes are sky high,
where dreams unshattered.
Winning will be a choice.

But the fact surprised me.
The dream was stolen.
I became divided.
To neighbor and thy self.

Passion has flaws.
The one I lived,
others will realize.
Sure it's meant, though unfair.

Battle continues.
Search never over.
Learnings with me.
I will finally taste victory.

Life Track

Rays of light sip through the car
illuminating the face I've seen
a long time ago;
my lifetime at that.

Drizzling rain continuously drops
and blocks the outside world
making that familiar face
stand out than any other element.

In a stop, the honk of the vehicles
seemed to be mute -
as the same face emerges
in all possible reflection.

I stared and found myself…

Same set of eyes
but of different depth.
The spark suggests
it has gained wisdom of the unknown.

Breaks released,
gas accelerated,
another journey has begun.

From a far,
same rough roads
and blinding darkness
awaiting to be discovered.

Only time will tell
if tomorrow will be
another destination at last.

Or it will be the same track
suggesting that the learning
has yet to be mastered.

Reflection of the Soul

I feel the cold drops of perspiration. I'm about to let go of the wastes I accumulated for the past day. I went inside the bathroom and brought along any magazine available. I pulled down my pants and sat on the throne. While glancing the pages looking at photos, I am concentrating at the same time for the success of this endeavour. As I'm having a tummy problem as well, the release takes time while cramps are getting more often. I closed my eyes and as if I'm letting go of my spirits. I took a deep breath and I felt a bitter sweet relief. I made it through. I felt brand new without traces of the past.
As I'm cleaning myself, I realized one thing. How I wish my heart's burden is similar as the human waste. Though you carry it, there's a definite and perfect time to let go. You may feel pain but it ends. It may be a cycle but it will never be of the same nature because everyday is a different experience. But my issue is persistent. Rusty same old. If only my heart is the waste, I could've died of internal body poisoning a long long time ago.

JUNO

Today, I watched JUNO alone and I don't know what happened but I suddenly felt good about myself after. I didn't bother to even analyze and squeeze my brain out to find the reason. All I know is that I am happy being me, and I'm not afraid now to soar and do what I want. I'm not bothered by what will happen to work tomorrow, or that I'm actually about to say no to someone in just a matter of time. I see myself on the mirror and I look fat but I know it will just get a lot better.

Or probably it all boils down to the fact the fact that I was able to tame myself in buying New York Fries and I felt proud? Or because Ellen Page is really cool? Or that because I look nicer when I smile and I liked it? Or because and so? Heck!

Gratitude

For Yvette...

I kept myself from all the dangers I foresee...
May it look like its all but a mystery, but it only guards the fragile in me.
It's not that I didn't try, but I just never found, never had the chance, never ready.
But now I'm just starting like a high school kid, just about to explore.
I'm glad you are there as I discover what friendship is supposed to be.
A lot of thanks for sharing your life, guiding my path, and opening my eyes to this whole new world I see.

Wanted: Closure

I spend today as it was still yesterday.
Same you who risked the norm of love to find that one who'll understand.
Same me who fell so strong believing that a prayer answered is a love immortal.
My memories are better kept inside the box,
but they always try to live in a place not for them.

As I see you, I will look for those eyes that cared,
hands that gave comfort, arms that accepted.
Though I know I will no longer find them in you,
my heart continues to weave the past together with the life I'm having without you.

I need to go as you have moved on...
Though I just can't because my life is you.

I need to let you go, but we need to talk it over.
But you never will as you try to forget our life that you left.