Heartfelt

"I transformed the love into self serving motives. Immediate comfort that is so trivial. After all, it's the only option I got. To experience even a little of love."

24 Hours

I don't expect anyone to understand. I am confused myself!

While eyes are heavy
The beam of light pierced me.
Yet again, I am in the wrong place.
Its time to move.

My 24 hours has just begun.
I chose to be still
Unknowingly it was a journey
Of deception, and of promises.

I moved not to start the day
but to turn back and redeem
The world didn’t see me.
I created my own.

The morning light.
I saw sun rising twice the same day.
Same spot
In a different dimension.

My being mechanical.
The system went beyond it.
No hunger, No thirst.
Intake wasn’t necessary.

I made myself conscious…

1st quarter – was nothing
But ordinary.
Just a usual scene.

Approaching 2nd quarter
A little devastating.
But armed with that inner strength.

2nd quarter was a reality
Passed by so fast
I needed more.

3rd quarter was a practice
but like the sunrise
it happened twice in a day.

It resulted to a commotion
Body clock rattled.
Every hour it signals.
Expecting an end.

Then it approached the 4th quarter.
The interval became closer.
The world turns.
Every thought surreal

I was so bad.
Then celebrities grabbing attention.
I got involved in a big trouble.
Then I wasn’t good enough.
I want to forget.
In my sleep they haunted me.
I cannot recognize if I’m dreaming or awake.
Never ending.
Never stopping until the 4th quarter lapsed.

When I saw the sun the second time,
I hardly had a quiet time
While no one is there.
While I am just alone.

24 hours.
One body and soul.
Still, the world is waiting
With the same reality.
It only made it worse.