As I Quote.... Part 1

While contemplating on things that happened to me in the recent past, these are bits of unrelated thoughts I told myself: Pessimism as always... As i quote....

1) Why don't I get what I want? Why do I always end up just trying to want what I have?

2) How can life be so unfair and so unreasonable? My best was never enough and will never be....

3) My point in doing my best is to get what i want.. If after all, it is not meant for me, why should I in the first place? Have I just wasted all my time?

3) Good things always never last.. The bad things always stay to make my life forever miserable.

4) Do I still have a sound judgment on just about anything? or my paranoia took over and got hold of my life already?

5) Why is my memory getting worse and worse... I am scared that I'll lose my most powerful tool... and I dont deserve this!!!!

6) I am never a winner.. I am a trying hard achiever.

7) I despise the fact that I am always the second best to others.

8) They say perseverance is when you fail 19 times and succed on the 2oth. Is it that all worth it? Because I am damn tired of trying things I would later find out that is not meant for me...

9) For once, I want to be given something that I didnt work hard for; because that i know is something i really deserve. Sadly, this never happened to me yet.

10) My life's challenges are not making me any healthy. It kills and destroys me....

11) I dont know how to forget... though I am forgiving.

12) Can't I be successful without making any risk?

13) Why myself isn't enough to be the next big thing? Why should i always modify? Maybe it only goes to show that my real self is no good at all...

14) "Next Time" is totally different from "If only". They are incomparable and you cannot subsititute one from the other...


Hours after this.... I am sure i'll go back to my old self again... motivated and full of hopes.... I am sure.