Just a Petty ID incident ( but a big deal for me)

i remembered what my good friend and blockmate cindy once told me... You can't just claim that a person's issue in life is trivial simply because you see it that way... each of us has our own stories to tell... and you must dig in to that experience to understand why the person is very much affected to something that seems nonsense...

something happened while i was going to a friend's house.... while i parked my car, i noticed that i lost my Unilever ID where i am having my OJT. For some reasons, i felt bad... not because i literally lost it but because that is supposed to be a living memory of my challenging stay with the company... i can always get a replacement if i want.. but that wouldnt be practical because i have only one week left with the company... i am just contemplating that it shouldnt happen in the first place!! of all the things that will be lost, why that ID which means a lot to me?? knowing me who always cherishes things of the past... that it is a big something..

i always hold on to memories because thats the only thing left for me. anything that reminds me of my past is special.. my yearbook - my old pictures- my old term papers saved in my computer - my elementary report card. So sad that there are just things you wanna go back to but you know you can't.. and the memory would comprise i guess. because of that, i believe that some good things indeed never last... or rather, all of the good things. i dont think theres such thing as forever already at least in this lifetime. though im still hoping....

i think this is getting nowhere again as usual... but the bottomline is: I hate changes to the things i am very used to and especially to those that i love most. moving on is still the hardest thing to do. period.